AAAAAHHH

[blush]

Literally a few minutes ago, I was in the bathroom and my sister told me to come out because she had something to show me. She's a year and a half younger than me. I came out and she was sitting on my bed, and she showed me a magazine with a feature about Inception, and randomly said "Do you have a sneezing fetish?" I played it cool ad didn't flip out, but I didn't exactly throw her off the trail either. I just said "Why?" and looked at the magazine, not looking up like it didn't even matter. I couldn't say "no," because I'm not good at lying and she would just be suspicious; I couldn't say "yes," because, well, duh. I should have said "what?" which would really be my first response if I didn't, because I probably wouldn't know anything about it and it would seem very random. But I didn't say that, which is good becuase that would have made her explain, but I dunno if I really would want that. So I essentially said, "yeah, how did you know?" just by saying "why?" She didn't answer and then we talked about the article for a bit.

But dang, I am flipping out inside. I went to my laptop, which was open on the bed where she was waiting for me, and I didn't have this forum or anything related open, she would have had to either look through my history with a purpose, because there's a lot in there and the forum isn't near the top, or typed an "s" in my address bar, or glanced through my windows to find a sticky note thing where I had a quote from my boyfriend's diary about sneezing. It didn't say anything about my fetish though. So pretty much, she couldn't have just seen something. It must have been somewhere else or sometime earlier. As far as I know I only have one physical paper anywhere that's related to it, and it's safely in my pocket of my diary, which I don't think has been tampered with. I don't know how much she would care to or how she would even begin to look it up, but I guess it's not out of the question.

She and my mom knew I was weird in some way, because through the years they have noticed how I get pissed off when they sneeze or sniffle a bunch. They have sort of asked me about it, and I never really answered, but just that shouldn't lead someone to think, "zomg, fetish!" UGH this is really killing me.

Apologies for ranting and poor english; I'm freaking out. Sympathy? Ideas? Try to convince me that it was a fluke?

EDIT- in addition to bad spelling in my freakout state, I totally put this in the wrong subforum. Help?

[Pearlised]

Omg, I am freaking out for you. But on the bright side SHE wasn't freaking. I suppose if someones a good enough observer and clever enough I'm sure they could connect the dots, as it will be how you act in general- like maybe in public when someone sneezes and you have an automatic reaction (like to stare) you did the right thing by not lying anyway. I have a little sister too and I have no idea how much she knows, so at least you know she knows... ?

Am I any help at all?

[Anonymouse]

Damn I wonder how she found out. I'd never want my sister to know, it'd just be so weird for anyone in my family to find out. I agree it's good she didn't act weird about it, or really talk about it at all afterwards (which makes me wonder why she even asked in the first place if she didn't want to know more ) but hopefully for your sake she never brings it up again or mentions it to anyone else in your family (or anyone else, period).

[blush]

Just now, at dinner, during a lull in conversation, she just once again randomly brought it up. Her - "For real, (my name), what's up with sneezes?" Me - "What?" Her - "What's up with sneezing?" Me - "Just leave me alone, okay?" My mom - How about that (so-and-so)? She's crazy, isn't she?" (So-and-so is a girl who has allergies and frequently sneezes in fits of 10+.) Then my mom got on the phone and my sister left the room. That is particularly rude though! Why would she bring it up again, especially in front of my mom?

I never act conspicuous in public, and I never show anything but aversion to my family's symptoms. The only way I could think of for her to figure it out would be through snooping, because I really am very careful.

Aarrgh I feel sick to my stomach now.

[Skiffy]

Ugh, I feel bad for you, that sounds like a nightmare. The following is an attempt at advice (my advice is usually useless or worse, so feel free to ignore it)- the fact that she's just bringing it up in front of your mum can't be good. Maybe you need to talk with her and explain that this is very personal and private for you, and that it is not OK for her to be going about telling other people.

[Buford]

Gee... You have my sympathies, of course.

Now, ideas:

1- Have you considered moving out?

2- Kill them both.

I'm helping!

[LeapYearKisses]

It's possible that by bringing it up in front of your mother she's trying to get you to talk about it with her. Maybe she just doesn't know the right way to go about it? She's probably just quite confused about the whole thing. There was a time when my brother outed my slash obsession to my mother who, thankfully, is leaving it well enough alone, but he did that to get back at me for not spending enought ime with him. It was an attention thing. You should ask her.

I'm sorry this is sucking so much for you, though! Good luck!

[Just Older]

Maybe your sister has some of the same feelings as you towards sneezing, blush. She might not recognize it as a fetish, though. Ask her next time, quite matter-of-factly: "Why? Do you?"

I'm sorry that you are upset by her quesions and embarassment.

[NoV]

Argh! I feel for you - sounds like a complete nightmare. My advice: just play it cool and hopefully they will get bored when they realise they are not (visibly) freaking you out - stay strong

[coffeepot]

I went to my laptop, which was open on the bed where she was waiting for me, and I didn't have this forum or anything related open, she would have had to either look through my history with a purpose, because there's a lot in there and the forum isn't near the top, or typed an "s" in my address bar, or glanced through my windows to find a sticky note thing where I had a quote from my boyfriend's diary about sneezing.

Is it really so implausible that, while waiting for you, she might have tried to visit a website with an s at the start of its name? It sucks if she has found the forum, but I wouldn't accuse her of deliberate snooping - if she truly did stumble upon this by accident, you'll just antagonise her and make things more difficult than they need to be.

[Nicole]

1- Have you considered moving out?

2- Kill them both.

I'm helping!

Dude, that's what I'm saying.

Sorry you're living through this right now. Yucky.

[Owen]

That sounds terrible! I dont think i could cope with my family finding out. Anyway, as horrendous as the idea sounds, it would probably be best to approach your sister in private and quiz her about it before she brings it up more. Whatever happens though i hope your situation improves soon

[Candy Dust]

Just now, at dinner, during a lull in conversation, she just once again randomly brought it up. Her - "For real, (my name), what's up with sneezes?"

Actually I find this very rude. She obviously knows that the subject is making you uncomfortable so it's just very stupid of her to bring it up again, especially during a family dinner!

[cheech]

Oh you poor thing!

I'm really sloppy with hiding my evidence, so i'm just waiting for this to happen to me.

[cheech]

Oh you poor thing!

I'm really sloppy with hiding my evidence, so i'm just waiting for this to happen to me.