Am I a bad person?

[2410Ar]

Sometimes I wonder am I a bad person 

Couse i'm dreaming about my bf getting sick And i even used to try to give him my cold ( but it didn't work)

So maybe someone has The same thing?

And if yes do you know Why we have such a bad thoughts?

I love my bf And I know that being sick is nothing Cool And None like being sick bit I still hope ( deep inside) that he will get sick?? 

What do you think about it?

[SleepingPhlox]

It is what it is.  We're not intentionally hurting anyone.  Colds are a fact of life, people are going to catch them, and barring complications or other issues, they're not going to kill most people.  I can totally understand the guilt, sometimes it feels a bit weird to be enjoying something that is making someone miserable but, hey.

I mean, it would be different if you were going out blowing powder in people's faces to try and get them to sneeze, but merely watching or imagining something that is going to happen to people anyway whether we're enjoying it or not?  No, that doesn't make you a bad person.